What is with my name?

                When a kid was born, one thing that parents would decide is what is the most beautiful name for their kid? So did my parents. Actually, I still don’t understand about the meaning of my name. I never asked to my parents directly about my name. However, I am certain that my name is given by them. I don’t know how come. One thing that I believe is my name is a good name. My name consists of two morphemes. The first morpheme is taken from Arabic. It is written in holy Quran on the last reading. In English it means human being. Perhaps, my parents hoped that I can be a real human being and a good moeslem. Eits, don’t under perception first. I am a human being since I was born. I mean today is so many human beings with the devil’s characteristics. That’s why I expect I won’t be like that.

                Even my name is related with holy Quran (Islam), I am still searching about Islam for my life. Even I say that I am a moeslem, but it’s not an easy thing to do what Islam has been teaching. I often regarded that Islam doesn’t sticky in myself even I usually call my name in my praying.

                The second morpheme of my name is so strange. Some people think that it is a little feminism. I never found about the real meaning of that name. Sometimes I think that my second morpheme is funny. Perhaps, it doesn’t exist in any language. It’s not drawing about cultural background or religion background. For me, the first and second morpheme of my name is like a hill and a valley. Both of them are so different. One is general enough and another is very strange. Perhaps, my parents would like to see their single son to be a different person (in goodness things).

A sad story happened when I did a school experience in an elementary school in Jakarta, it was an introducing session and a teacher called my name with “Ibu”. Oh My God, that was so embarrassing. I couldn’t complain at that time. I was only calm seeing my friends laughed on me, Oh God.

Whatever people think about my name, I feel comfort and proud having that name. Even I don’t know why it can be, I believe that my parents put a big hope for me. I never think about changing my name. I don’t want to change it into another. Perhaps, in the future I will name my children with my name too. I feel my parents and all of their biggest effort are in my name. It is also the symbol of my parents’ love. I am so proud having this name.